My my, time’s been a-flitting. Eleven months since my last post. I started this thing with the greatest of intentions. Sigh. The road to hell, and all that . . . . . .
(Insert several moments of introspection and navel-gazing.)
Perhaps it’s the time of day, er, night, as I write this (post-9 pm), but as I reflect over the last 11 months, my dominant emotions is frustration. Mainly with myself, though not exclusively.
A year ago, I had just taken several deliberate steps towards a change of lifestyle, and workstyle. I quit my permanent job, and went freelance. I got a Twitter account, and started tweeting. (Check me out.) My first contract went very well, then I ditched it after three months for an even better-paying one, closer to home so there’d be no more long overnight commutes. I started this blog. I started telling people I was going to get into internet marketing.
A year on, and where am I? No blog posts in 11 months. No tweets for almost as many months. Still no money-making websites. Somehow I got lost in the doldrums again. (Remember Milo in The Phantom Tollbooth?)
Perhaps my expectations were just the foolish ones of a teenager who thinks he has the world by the tail, and all his plans will just . . . . . . happen. Whatever. Having taken the plunge, I took my foot off the accelerator a bit. The result was, acceleration stopped. Surprise, surprise.
But I think also, I am suffering from having allowed myself to be institutionalised for 40+ years. Coming from a family of scientists and civil servants, I have had few role models of self-advancement. I joined a profession (engineering) that is often given to self-deprecation. And I spent the last ten years working in an corporate environment (let’s be honest) where mediocrity was the valued norm (and was rewarded accordingly, which would be mediocrely). I am an institutionalisee. Ditching the habit of a lifetime happens about as quickly and turning around a large passenger liner (iceberg or no iceberg). Becoming free is easier than staying free.
So a year on, I am depressing the gas pedal again. I am tweeting semi-regularly. You see this blog post. I am wrapping up my last contract, and have already begun a new one. I’ve signed up to a membership site (NicheProfitClassroom) that teaches how to create and market eBooks. And I’ve begun the (painfully slow) process of creating that first internet marketing website, the first of many I intend. And I’ve read, and am now re-reading (albeit now the second edition) of Tim Ferriss’ The 4-Hour Workweek, which is one of the most inspiring and hope-giving books I’ve read in a while. (I also have some reservations about it, but that’s another post.) He has a great line in the book: “Dude, are you turning into the bald fat man in the red BMW convertible?” (Representing the stereotypical man atop the corporate ladder against the wrong wall.)
So here’s the invitation: If any of you see no posts for a while, any evidence that I’m losing the edge, any hint of a red BMW in my driveway, do me a favour: Post a comment below to set me straight. It need only say, “Dude . . . . . ”
I’ll get the message.